Strategies.

Jun. 17th, 2025 10:18 pm
hannah: (Pruning shears - fooish_icons)
[personal profile] hannah
Of late, I've tried to derive some entertainment value of sitting and waiting for people to stop talking so I don't interrupt them because that's about the only way to get through it with any composure. There's people I've met who can go for long minutes without giving me any indications they want me to talk. I'm tempted to see if raising my hand does anything, or getting up and moving.

I know I could theoretically interrupt them, but every person who has this trait would have to be yelled at for them to hear me talking. Though now I'm also tempted to try to just start talking in a normal volume, ignoring everything they're saying, just to see that reaction.

I wish this were an exaggeration

Jun. 17th, 2025 01:08 pm
dolorosa_12: (teen wolf)
[personal profile] dolorosa_12
What I have seen, essentially wall-to-wall across social media, for the past week:
-'Why is no one talking about [this atrocity]?'
-'Why are people talking about [this injustice and not that injustice]?' (Often two different posts by two different people, in quick succession, with said injustices reversed.)
-'What you are doing in response to [this injustice] is insufficient.'
-'If you haven't mentioned [this atrocity] on your social media, you're part of the problem.'
-'If you've mentioned [this injustice and not that injustice] on your social media, you're a hypocrite and part of the problem.'
-'You're protesting the wrong way.'
-'Protesting when it's permitted by the state isn't real protest.'
-'These protests are all a bit cringe, aren't they?'
-'You're condemning [this atrocity], but not in the right way.'
-'You're condemning [this atrocity], but far too late.' (This coming, without irony, from the same people I witnessed several years ago saying, 'it's never too late to find courage and speak out publicly against [this same atrocity].')

What I have seen, in much smaller numbers — a little fragment struggling to stay afloat in the deluge:
-'[This injustice] is an injustice for these specific reasons, and here is something concrete that anyone reading/viewing this post can do to help.'

Needless to say, whenever I witnessed the latter, I actually did the things suggested, and felt much more of a sense of agency and purpose, than when I saw the former.

(And obviously I recognise the irony of being irritated by people complaining about what they see/don't see on social media rather than trying to offer concrete solutions to the consequences of major (geo)political injustices ... and then writing a whole post complaining about what I see/don't see on social media. But I am just. so. tired.)

Innovative cooling

Jun. 16th, 2025 10:45 pm
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[personal profile] dhampyresa
Is it too hot (hot damn) and you would like a break? You would, in fact, not mind if you got so cold your teeth chattered? Consider: PLATELETS DONATION!

They take the blood out, they spin it around, they put it back in!

Carrying this scrap of paper.

Jun. 15th, 2025 10:42 pm
hannah: (steamy drink - fooish_icons)
[personal profile] hannah
The day's plans of meeting a friend of a friend and seeing a Broadway show were scuttled by the star of the show having to back out at the last minute due to a small injury. As the friend of a friend had come to the city to see Orville Peck more than he'd come to see Cabaret, we decided that he'd be better off refunding the tickets.

I knew the neighborhood a little bit, so I took us four blocks north and one block west to go from the city people visit to the city people live in, going from having a bite and some coffee at a tourist destination to doing the same at a local coffee and sandwich place. He ordered a gabagool sandwich and a pink iced chai latte, and I just had a pink latte. Afterwards, we went to a record store and he found a vinyl Ney Matogrosso album, which was a surprise because he's apparently hard to find in the US on pretty much any format, but especially vinyl.

Not long after, we went our separate ways, him to Brooklyn and the friends he was staying with and me to my apartment to finish folding laundry and cook some lunches for the coming week. I could fixate on the misfortune, or I could look at how we managed to made the best of things.

Books?

Jun. 15th, 2025 10:54 pm
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[personal profile] dhampyresa
How many books are you usually reading?

I have a minimum of 5 on the gp at any given time: one each of fiction and nonfiction on both phone and ereader (no overlap) plus a paper book that can be either.
dolorosa_12: (persephone lore olympus)
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This is going to be a fairly short catch up, in spite of all the things that have been going on. I don't think I've posted properly on Dreamwidth for several weeks — but I have been massively busy. This weekend is the first time in quite a while that I've felt relaxed and not as if I were lacking in huge quantities of sleep.

My mum, and then sister #1 arrived to visit. Mum will be back (she's doing her usual multiple-month European summer holiday), but my sister just stayed for a few days. Currently the pair of them are in Italy, wandering around beautiful places (which I envy) in 35-degree heat (which I don't).

My sister's time in the UK coincided with Beyoncé's London concerts, and she asked if I wanted to go if she covered the costs (she's always wanted to see Beyoncé in concert and had never had the opportunity since she doesn't tour Australia any more) and dealt with all the palaver of sitting online refreshing the ticketing website when they went live. So now I can cross 'attend massive stadium concert' off my list of cultural experiences. The London weather did not cooperate (although fortunately our seats were under cover), but that didn't stop procedings: nine outfit changes, incredible band and dancers, lots of theatre and pyrotechnics, and of course music and stage presence enough to fill that vast space. I wouldn't say it's my favourite way to experience live music (I like gigs in weird little clubs with thirty other people), but I'm glad I went.

We only got home after midnight, and I then went out the next night to the silent disco ('90s music-themed this time) with Matthias, so I was completely exhausted.

Beyond that, my family's visit involved a lot of good food (my sister took me out for a meal at this place as a fortieth birthday present, she, Mum, Matthias and I went to this place for lunch, etc), some wandering around London, and a chance to see the excellent British Library exhibition on the history of gardening in the UK.

Unfortunately, my sister also brought her Australian germs with her, and I was then horrendously sick with a cold for most of last week, recovering just in time to head over to Worcester for a conference. Refreshingly, this was the first library or educational conference I've attended in several years that wasn't completely dominated by the topic of generative AI (indeed it didn't even get mentioned until one of the questions asked of the presenter of the final presentation), which was nice. I returned home on Friday, immediately cancelled my classes at the gym for Saturday, and collapsed in exhaustion.

My most recent reading (with the exception of Autocracy, Inc by Anne Applebaum) has been decidedly mediocre, and I think the combination of my low tolerance for a) poor editing and copyediting and b) 'cosy' fiction is going to lead me to be a lot more cautious in picking up any currently hyped SFF (especially fantasy) unless I am already familiar with the author. I came to the realisation after reading two such disappointing books in quick succession that although I love stories which involve a lot of domesticity, cosiness just does not work for me, since it seems to currently translate as no conflict (or the kinds of conflict that are easily resolved by a conversation, or a character spontaneously offering help with nothing previously building to that point). Hopefully I'll make better book choices after this previous run.

I think it's possibly fair to say that I want cosy cottagecore in my own life, and not in my fiction!

Special tortures.

Jun. 12th, 2025 08:58 pm
hannah: (Fuck art let's dance - mimesere)
[personal profile] hannah
In trying to find a new pair of closed-toed sandals that use a buckle instead of Velcro, I'm learning that's basically a product no longer being made. I'm also learning shoe websites don't like people searching for things like closed-toed, or the clasp mechanism. Sometimes what I want is classified as a sandal, sometimes a shoe. And this isn't even getting into considering things like heel height, and heel narrowness.

It's especially demoralizing to find there's very little made in the way of women's shoes with buckles these days. Something nice to wear to work and meeting up with friends that helps me feel like I'm a grown-up and costs less than $400 doesn't seem like it should be giving me such a headache, but then, it's shoe shopping. Nothing's at all pleasant about that. These seem promising, and I may risk buying sight unseen to avoid going into a physical shoe store.

What to think about.

Jun. 11th, 2025 09:18 pm
hannah: (Laundry jam - fooish_icons)
[personal profile] hannah
In chatting about arbitrary divisions into two groups and applying that to the internet, we came up with the binaries of good internet and bad internet, and young internet and old internet. I then suggested algorithmic internet and end-user internet, and I stand by that. I often say I only use social media on my computer where I have a full keyboard, big screen, mouse, and browser extensions, all of which help me curate my experience - while it's not perfect, I'm still largely in control of things. I haven't ceded ground to an app or control to a set of suggestions. I'll often see complaints but rarely what's being complained about, which gives me both a skewed view of what's going on and satisfaction in being so well-curated I barely glimpse what's being touted as a widespread problem.

Keeping the internet on a computer, where it belongs, fixes a lot of problems before they start.

Also of note today was someone on my floor moving out and I got some fancy imported Korean sea salt they weren't going to bother hauling around with them. I don't know how fancy it is, but it tastes quite nice. I'm thinking I'll use it in soup.

DYI

Jun. 11th, 2025 11:14 pm
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[personal profile] dhampyresa
I've been drawing a lot more than usual lately and now my wrist fucking hurts. I have an appointment with the doctor next week. In the mean time I've been using a wrist warmer + pieces of cardboard as a makeshift brace/splint to keep my wrist neutral, and if anyone has stretches or something I could do, I am all ears.

Aches.

Jun. 10th, 2025 10:42 pm
hannah: (Interns at Meredith's - gosh_darn_icons)
[personal profile] hannah
At some point in between sitting down to write and finishing the night's wordcount, something went nasty on the right side of my neck. Suddenly and without any seemingly inciting cause, too. Not even lifting more weight than I should've tried or falling and landing badly. The oddness of it doesn't help the pain, but at least it seems to point to an acute cause that should, ideally, clear up after a hot shower and some sleep.

Waking up to hail this morning was a surprise; getting out of the subway after the day's rains had all passed to leave the air in one of those hauntingly fragile summer afternoons was just as much a surprise, if a far more pleasant one.

Conclave made me do it

Jun. 10th, 2025 10:43 pm
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Cover for Sophie Clark's Cruel is the Light


I first got interested in Sophie Clark's "Cruel is the Light" because the cover is really pretty (art by Mona Finden, art direction by Ben Hughes). I wasn't going to read it because while the marketing said "enemies to lovers" the summary wasn't sound "enemy-ing" enough.

Then the Pope died.

And I thought I'd read a book sent mostly in Rome because I had no idea what to read next, fiction-wise.

Cruel is the Light is... Fine. It's fine. It indeed isn't enemies to lovers, it's more rivals to lovers forbidden love fake dating. The love story isn't unbelievable, anymore than any two week love story is. I guessed both that
from the summary Jules was a demon
and
from early in the book the Vatican's god was a demon
but not how those two tied together. There's one image I really liked and might draw at some point, idk. The demon/exorcist worldbuilding reminded me of the manga Claymore. Anyway. I don't regret reading it, but I wasn't going to read the sequel. I'd give it a 13/20. (Disclaimer: I read something like half of it while stuck on a stopped train.)

Then the Pope died.

Ok, in the book he's "Exorcist Primus". Point is they're going to be doing X-Treme Conclave next book and I am intrigued.

Stuff.

Jun. 10th, 2025 03:45 pm
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[personal profile] netgirl_y2k
Just had a lovely walk with Freya around the park. Met a dog called Elmo, a dog called Fenrir, and a dog called Gus, which cover all three of the platonic ideals of dog naming, 1) this is a muppet, 2) this is a wolf, and 3) this is an elderly human.

Freya and I also took a little trip last weekend up to Inverness to hang out with [personal profile] tamoline and her wife who were on holiday up there, which was a lot of fun, not least because Freya accidentally tobogganed down their stairs, got herself trapped in their kitchen, and then decided that she wanted to live with them. If you are ever meeting online friends for the first time and are worried that it might be a little awkward I can highly recommend taking a stupid wolf with you as a conversation starter.

I happened to mention to my mum later that I'd gone up north to spend the day with some online friends who were up from England, and after a long pause she said '...I thought your internet friends lived in Germany?' To which I indignantly pointed out that I'm personable, people like me, I have more than one friend; this was met by a more sceptical look than you want from your mother.

We watched the series finale of Doctor Who, to which my reaction was, and still remains, holy, hail Mary pass, Batman! I am generally of the school of thought that spreadsheet dorks are a curse on most forms of entertainment, but I also kind of want to go to the pub with a Disney accountant just so that after, like, three drinks I can go 'So, Doctor Who, how's that math mathing?'

I also have gripes about how heteronormative the finale was, but that's increasingly the new normal, isn't it? I love living through a time of enormous backlash to any and all social progress orchestrated by history's greatest fuckwits.

In gayer news, here are some books that I have been reading:

The Unlikely Pursuit of Mary Bennet by Linz McLeod - Publishing a series of lesbian romances about Jane Austen characters is God's work, so I don't want to criticise it too harshly, not least because as a f/f regency romance it is perfectly delightful, but as a piece of Austen fanfiction it was, eh, Charlotte Lucas felt really true to character, but Mary Bennet could have been anybody, she felt half author's OC, half thinly veiled Lizzie.

That said, I will be picking up next year's The Miseducation of Caroline Bingley as soon as it comes out because God's work.

The Incandescent by Emily Tesh - I was so excited for this because Tesh's previous facist punching novel Some Desperate Glory had easily been my favourite of that year, so I was kind of bummed that I didn't like this one as much. Maybe it was the genre change, instead of sci-fi it was magical realism set at a contemporary magic school; maybe it was my class chippiness, I'm not entirely sure that private school pupils don't deserve to be eaten by demons; maybe it was that it was heavily talked up as having a central f/f relationship, which honestly felt kind of tacked on, while much more time was spent on the het relationship with a dude that the reader realises is the villain, like, a hundred pages before the protagonist.

Like, it's fine, it's good even, my expectations were just a bit out of control. Also, go read Some Desperate Glory.

The Vengeance by Emma Newman - Pirates, and werewolves, and vampires, and lesbians, oh my! Our protagonist has spent her life at sea during the golden age of piracy when she discovers her "mother" is no such thing, and embarks on a fish out of water road trip through pre-revolution France, running from werewolves, kissing girls, and fighting vampires.

Is it a lot? Yes. Is it totally awesome? Also, yes!

Dial in the number.

Jun. 9th, 2025 10:31 pm
hannah: (Library stacks - fooish_icons)
[personal profile] hannah
The day's major accomplishment was getting some hand-holding for my hard drive problem and getting the man on the other end to laugh a bit when I said I knew enough to get myself into trouble but not how to get out of it. Hopefully I can get my act together enough to send it out for repairs in a day or two.

The secondary accomplishments were taking the stairs to the gym, and making an attempt to reach out when I felt myself going down a spiral.

All go together.

Jun. 8th, 2025 10:12 pm
hannah: (On the pier - fooish_icons)
[personal profile] hannah
Today's luxurious disappointments are in the fields of scheduling issues and data preservation.

The latter is because a hard drive stopped working. I got a couple error messages about moving and deleting files - "Error 0x8007045D: the request could not be performed because of an I/O device error" - which was soon followed by Error code 43, then "Cannot open drive for direct access". At this point, I'm pretty secure in saying it's not going to get fixed by trying the hard drive on another computer, or that I can fix it myself. As such, I'm going to leave it alone in the hopes it doesn't get worse and look into local data recovery centers to see which one can best help me.

In the former's case, it's because Escapade is scheduled opposite a few movie screenings at the MOMI I'd very much like to see. I can probably juggle them around, pick which movies versus which panels, and it's more than a little annoying to have to choose between two fun things to look forward to. As I said, luxurious disappointments.

"We don't trade lives" sure, man

Jun. 8th, 2025 09:24 pm
dhampyresa: (Gwen Stacy)
[personal profile] dhampyresa
I was rewatching Avengers: Infinity War and it, again, struck me how bloody hypocritical Steve's "we don't trade lives" line(s) is. Friend. Pal. Bro. My man. Do you really think no Wakandan is gonna die fighting Thanos' armies. Like. Get a fucking grip, omg.

In your room again.

Jun. 5th, 2025 08:56 pm
hannah: (Sam and Dean - soaked)
[personal profile] hannah
I went to a master's program's commencement ceremony at the Apollo Theater today, and while I left after two hours and didn't see it end, based on how those first two hours and the setup went, I doubt anyone blasted any James Brown.

What a wasted opportunity.

I'm glad I went, though, for all its wasted opportunities and long-winded metaphor-straining speeches and a prerecorded speech from a chancellor that included a plug to sign up for the alumni association while detailing its many features. My sister in law E. and older brother J. seemed happy about it, and I'll know I was willing to make an effort to show up.

Scraping paper to document.

Jun. 4th, 2025 08:42 pm
hannah: (Sam and Dean - soaked)
[personal profile] hannah
Less than eighteen hours to go and still no texts, emails, or other forms of communication about my sister in law E.'s graduation tomorrow. It's information I can look up fairly easily, and that strikes me as being somewhat beside the point when I don't have anything beyond a verbal "come if you can" offer. It's not exactly sitting peacefully with me. I know a closed mouth doesn't get fed, and I'm not sure if I'm supposed to open my mouth or not.

I plan on going, and it's feeling a bit like it's under protest.

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